Well, that has been a while...

So as I was trying to fall asleep last night, I remembered something. Now I thought it might be funny to share, so here it goes.

I can image that every parent is very happy when the time comes that the children sleep in their own beds. No more :" I peed in the bed, can I sleep here with you guys" no more : "There is a monster in my room, REALLY".

I cannot remember when that ended for me but I am assuming my parents were very happy that they had the bed for themselves.

Now about 2 months ago, we had two family reunions, one in Sligo and the other in Tullow. In between those reunions we decided to stay with family in Kerry for a few days. We rented an apartment and it was my grandmother, brother, parents an myself who stayed there. My grandmother being my grandmother she got the double bedroom, my parents the other and yes... my brother and I had to share a room.

Not bad, I mean there is always someone there to talk to.

First night, we go to bed and were talking and kind of doze off, and what happened next I havent experienced ever in my life.

I am laying in bed and I feel weight behind me, as if someone is crawling into my bed, so I try to move and my body is not allowing me to move and then I feel pressure around my body, as if someone put their arms around me. Spooning me? I am trying like mad to get loose but I cannot move I am frozen completely. I panic and I start screaming for my brother SEAN, SEAAAAAN but I cannot make a sound, my lips were moving but no sound came out.
Suddenly I awake.... I was asleep? I really thought I was awake... I sit up and call my brother, he was fast asleep, when I check the time about 2 hours have passed... Confusing as fuck.

Now I figured FUCK THAT SHIT and took a deep breathe and went back to sleep.

Again I feel something/someones weight beside me in bed and again the spooning sensation. I panicked immediately, clamping my hands together and I try to roll and scream again... nothing happens. Until I force myself to move so hard that I fall out of bed, lying on the floor I cannot move again and still cant make noise, about to piss myself, I focus really hard on my hands. Move your hand, Emma. Thats what I was thinking. MOVE YOUR GODDAMN HAND EMMA..

As I move my hand I wake up, in bed... So scared... I have never been that scared. My brother still asleep and I didnt know what to do. So what do you do when you dont know what to do? Yes go to your parents. I knocked on their door and they were awake. My dad asked me whats wrong? I explained him the whole story as I am walking back and forth through the room, trying to understand what the fuck just happened.

My parents look at me, a little confused I think. So my dad asks me: "What do you want to do Emma"? Well... I said, Can I sleep in here and you sleep in my bed?

I think a moment of silence passed and I cannot remember exactly what my dad said but he got out of bed and walked over to the room I was staying in.

I crawled into bed safely with my mother beside me. It took me a while to fall asleep as my heart was still pounding but it didnt happen again.

I asked everyone else who was staying in that house if they had anything like that happening to them. They all said no. My brother slept like a baby, and so did my dad....

What is was? I am not sure. Might have been some weird dream/ lack of sleep experience. I have experienced it once after, not so long ago, only this time I recognized what was about to happen and focused on my hand again and I snapped out of it.

So apparently focusing on something helps.

Moral of the story? You are never too old to share a bed with your parents!!

Do you drive?

In holland you start your driving lessons and you have to pass a theory test before you can do your practical exam. 

I think Ive spent (this is not joke) 280 euro trying to pass my theory test. Took it about 7 times when I was still in Holland, on top of that I spend about 2000 on driving lessons obviously a waste of money.

In Ireland on the other hand, you need to pass your theory test before you can start your driving lessons. Upon passing the theory test you can apply for a learners permit which will allow you to drive with  A LOT of rules attached obviously.

Did the test twice... But finally past last weekend!!! The level of happiness I felt was indescribable. I walked to the train for about 40 mins with a HUGE smile on my face!! Because finally I am one step closer to getting my license.

No I did not take all those failed tests as a sign that maybe I should be in such a position of driving a vehicle.

Now as I sat at the station waiting for an hour for my train home.... Sounds like I live in the middle of nowhere doesnt it? I kinda do....

I looked at the piece of paper that said: congratz bla bla and how to apply for your permit and then I realised.. FUCK this isnt the permit? I need to do more shit? Yes, its not that easy.... I passed in the category of car/work vehicle and as I kept reading that part, work vehicle I thought to myself: "Mhhh would I really have gone through all that trouble just so I can drive a goddamn tractor"? I texted my parents and they told me: " Emma that cant be right" but as I did more research on the subject I was really convinced all I was allowed to do was drive a tractor. 

Now I am a person that wants to look on the bright side of things and even though I was heartbroken for a bit, I sat on the station laughing like an idiot about how much of an idiot I am... Must have looked mad....

BUT BUT when I looked into it a little more I realized that I can drive both a car and a tractor so, all good!!

Came home and decided to leave all the other things til the week started seeing as you cant do shit in the weekend, motor tax office wise.

Wednesday I looked into it all and my god.. the amount of things you need to hand in and get looked at... It is going to be a process.

I have to bring in:

- 2 identical photos.

- Copy of my ID.

- Proof that I can actually see.

- 35 euros (whats 35 compared to 280)

- Proof of residence

Andd?? Could be more depending on the 3 page form that I have already filled out..

Conclusion? I thought this was going to be easy but no Emma, getting your license is hard...

Someone want to do all this for me? Bring it in to the office? Ill pay you!!